Last Post for 2012
I am wishing you and your loved ones a beautiful, enjoyable, content, and hopefully humor-able year. We’re all in this together. Thank you for being here, for making a world of difference in my life.
It had been an idea in the back of my head all year long, to once again try my hand at selling on eBay. Motion would back this idea whenever I found something I could, “Flip on eBay”, as I called it. I would get excited, tuck away the treasure and then promptly forget about it!
At this writing I have 19 items listed in active auctions, this may be the most I’ve accomplished post-injuries. In preparation I unsubscribed from those ad messages we all get, but I never paid attention to how much brain bucks they extracted. I made sure I could focus solely on eBay.
Intentions being all well and good, here I am, almost at the end of one set of auctions ending and I am exhausted. I don’t mean a little run down, I mean flat out, daily naps are never under 3 hours! Oh yes, and let us not forget the nightmares. Interesting combination, eh? I am now beginning to wonder if overdoing it = nightmares. Curious question I’ll continue to explore.
I am not getting anything else done at all. Mornings, Richard takes care of the chores because I’m sleeping. Ugh! Calgon, take me away! :) LOL!
The fact I was once successful selling on eBay, a whole lot faster, etc., is a mute point. That was all pre-TBI. Just like this is a different fiscal economy than when I first started on eBay, my own brain economy has changed too.
I did that thing Pema Chodron mentions about asking ourselves how comfortable I was/am doing this? Not at all. My spirit disappeared to wherever spirits go when we compromise ourselves, add in the low energy cycle, the lingering images of nightmares, and I begin making mistakes…as if I weren’t slow enough to start with!
I forget this is why I couldn’t work. I’ll be damned, I STILL have a brain injury! LOL! I can maintain something short-term, but long-term, no go. I might have four good hours a day to get everything done, chores, etc.
Not even one week’s worth of auctions and my brain has left the station! On one hand, it is really good practice for me, I consider it my own Occupational Therapy, but, consistently making mistakes and my spiritual self vacating indicate this isn’t the most ideal path. I could muddle through, trying to ‘make’ myself do this, but I can’t do it.
Success without mistakes is pretty rare, but boy, when it’s there, my gosh, it feels unbelievably good! So, for now, I let go of what I can’t do and focus on what I can. I like helping and giving, so will focus on that. I need a place where my spirit is free…and I can just go back to reading and writing blogs and encourage all the souls I meet along the way.
So for now, I let go of the notion of selling on eBay as I had hoped. One more thing to let go of, but this path of TBI, to successfully navigate and live each day well, requires that. I figure I’ll sell the items that need the eBay audience, but, other things. Well, it’s time to let go of that. Not all letting go is bad…in fact, maybe none of it is bad.
Thanks for listening! :)
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“You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have really lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love.” - Henry Drummond
(Canadian poet 1851-1860)
|Get Things Done and Have Some Fun with Smart Devices - Caregiver's Education Series Live Webinar|
|Part of the Caregiver's Education
Series. Michelle Ranae Wild returns in this follow-up webinar to her
very popular Technology as a Cognitive Prosthetic webinar.
To help get things done, we will explore to-do/task apps available, including the native Reminders app that comes standard in iOS devices. The to-do apps can be used to track such things as shopping lists, individual tasks (e.g. buy gift for Lisa's birthday), and projects that include multiple sub-tasks.
Then, for having some fun, a number of game apps will be demonstrated. An emphasis will be placed on how the games demonstrated work on various cognitive skills (e.g. planning, sequencing, attention to detail, memory, etc).
Most of the apps discussed during the Webinar can be purchased and downloaded for Apple iOS and Android smart devices.
This lecture will identify the strengths and weaknesses of the to-do apps demonstrated; identify at least one non-native to-do app, and explain what additional functionality it offers as compared to native to-dp apps (reminders); and, list at least three games and identify what cognitive skills they work on.
The webinar will take place on July 19, 2012: 3:00pm - 4:00pm eastern time 2:00pm - 3:00pm central time 1:00pm - 2:00pm mountain time 12:00 noon - 1:00pm pacific time.
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Thank you kindly for stopping by.
I was an ordinary person whose life indelibly changed in a split second after being rear-ended on the freeway years ago. I still bear body pain, and probably always will.
It is the daily struggle of unseen limitations due to Traumatic Brain Injury that is the most exhausting, frustrating, debilitating and trying part of life post-injury. I fight depression, pain, weakness, and fatigue on a daily, sometimes moment-by-moment, basis.
I often joke a person sang about leaving his heart in San Francisco, well, I left my brains out on the freeway! (Not all of course, the intellect is still there, the processing is slower and memory is like early Alzheimer’s.)
As of February 2009, I have sustained three diagnosed Brain Injuries. As research shows, and I can attest from experience and fighting to get better, the injuries are cumulative.
I have re-posted this blog which, at the advice of those more experienced and insightful than I, was removed for legal proceedings. All old posts will be addressed first with “Back to the Beginning’, the post title and date originally posted.
It is my conscious intention this blog benefit all who visit. May this be a place of inspiration, education, ideas, healing, and, hopefully enjoy a laugh or two together along the way.
Please join me in this difficult life-changing journey with Traumatic Brain Injures I met 'by accident'. Each day's challenge is accepting the new kind of 'normal' in The Fight of My Life.
Blessings, Love & Peace,
(The name ResilientHeart is not one I came up with because that is how I am, I named myself that because that is how I have to be.)